first hands in clay
leaving dinosaur imprints
where tyrants are king
and wear the king’s ring
one finger forefinger
guiding design
that through many millennia
shows us humanity
in the museum
as the lights go on
the children
understand
first hands in clay
leaving dinosaur imprints
where tyrants are king
and wear the king’s ring
one finger forefinger
guiding design
that through many millennia
shows us humanity
in the museum
as the lights go on
the children
understand
the rains grow our children
green and tall
as the green grain in springtime
our children grow
all fated to greatness
let the rains fall
let the rains grow our children
I do not pray
but if I prayed
I would pray for you
to see the blood of the children
in your dreams
to see the blood of the children
on your hands
to see the blood of the children
wherever you may be
and wherever you may go
I do not pray
but if I prayed
if we had children
and they were clever
as you
and beautiful
as you
that would be fine
Screaming children.
Screaming
children. Screaming children.
Screaming children. Screaming
children. Screaming
He threw a handful of seeds in the air and, with a popping cracking splitting sound, from each seed flew a butterfly, crimson or golden or blue. The children’s eyes widened as butterflies landed on their heads and shoulders. “Remember this beauty forever,” he said. ‘Forever.’
Nineteen. Nineteen years today.
If I had had children, you would not have seen them grow up. They would have been a twinkle, a gentle belly swelling, an arrival with tears and cries of joy, school and scabs and scars and almost good enough for the football teams and the ukelele band.
The clothes you knitted they would have worn with love then exasperation and then with a retro swing of the scarf. You would have wiped their eyes when they fell, their noses when they fell ill, their eyes again when they fell in love. You would have been Nan, then Bet for a dare, then Nan to hear the secrets they would not have told me.
And now, nineteen years later, they would have been grown, and away alone, and always on the phone to hear your voice. I miss you mum, for me and for the children I never had.
A tall man in a splashed grey t-shirt taps a stick on his leg. A black-and-white patched dog looks pointedly into the distance away from him.
Ginger toddler twins sleep side by side in a double buggy. Finally silent, they are holding hands. Their pale parents look close to tears. Their arms hang heavy.
Four tan, brown, tan, brown dogs weave leads from two hands, over and under and over and under. The owner’s look says she is too old for this. She pulls them back and puffs out her cheeks.
A race of clouds skit, one by one, across the face of the sun. The girl’s father pulls his pullover on. She drops her ball and her face crumples. The ball rolls towards the river, picking up speed, and her father stoop dives to save it.
The patchwork dog snatches a narrow-eyed glance at the man in the t-shirt, at his stick, then fixes the distance again, shoulders pinched.
Happy loud tourists with sunglasses, good hair and warm padded jackets tumble laughing down the green mesh metal steps. Some must be couples, but it is not clear who is not.
Finally, finally, the stick whirls over the waiting dog’s head and splashes down in the river, just beyond a brief whirlpool. A yelp, one would guess of joy, and the dog is springs and tail and pointed ears and bouncing.
I smile vaguely to myself and vaguely at other people, pick up my bags and walk on. There is the sound of a dog hitting water.
Children 1 and 2 skipped in the school yard. Miles away, Child 3 pressed the red button. One and Two disappeared from his screen.