You, always you

Between the waves
the silence.

Between the silence
the words.

Between the words
you, always you.

Between the shadows
the light.

Between the light
the dreaming.

Between the dreaming
you, always you.

Between the heartbeats
the resting.

Between the resting
the force.

Between the force
you, always you.

Between the words
between the dreaming
between the force
between the very end of things
You. You.
You, always you.

Blood

gave blood today
saved a life today
gave blood today
saved a life today

watched the flowing through the plastic
watched the darkness of my heart blood
watched the ceiling fan slow turning
watched the darkness of my heart blood

gave blood today
saved a life today
gave blood today
saved a life today

thought of how many teaspoons needed
thought of other reasons bleeding
thought of walking home soon after
thought of other reasons bleeding

lucky to be giving
lucky I’m not needing
lucky to be giving
lucky I’m not needing

gave blood today
saved a life today
gave blood today
saved a life today

Mix tape

By the time I had decided what songs to put on the cassette mixtape, they were all already classics. I did not want to appear too wedded to the past, so I thought again. By the time I had newly finalised my choices, you had told me about your new CD player. I had to save up for months. And by then there were even more songs that said exactly what I wanted to tell you. I thought again, perhaps for too long. Well, definitely for too long, we both know that. Or I know that, and you would too if I had made the mixtape. The songs are still here in my heart.