Swing

I push you gently

firmly

and you swing out from the edge.

You are floral against the blue beyond the cliff

and

after a moment

of suspension

of disbelief

swing back.

 

I catch you firmly

gently

and wrap my arms around your waist.

I kiss your neck and you half-twist.

Your dress is thin cotton in the temperate sun.

 

I push you again

and again

you swing out

toes pointed

legs straight out from the worn wooden seat.

The rope knots squeak

the tree imagined on the edge of the drop.

 

You swing out above the clouds

out

back

out

back

my hands on your shoulders

each time you return.

 

Again I hold on to your waist

and we swing out

above the emptiness

my feet hang down

cutting through clouded air.

Your back is warm through the cotton

my arms are tight.

We swing together

the sun to our side

soft clouds below.

 

And then we are back on the grass

and you turn

and look in my eyes

and I raise my eyebrows

and you nod

and I nod

and I walk backwards

holding you firm

until I am standing on tiptoes

and then I run forward

and as we swing out

out

up and out

and I am not sure how

but you let go of the swing and

we are

falling

falling

falling

through the soft warm air.

 

We fall

and we fall

and I do not know why

but I am not afraid of the height or the falling

and you are with me

and I am with you

and you smile and I smile.

 

 

On the winter beach

She screws up the letters he had written her, page by single page. Burning them would still feel too final, the ash too easy to smooth between fingertips. She imagines the powder-grey prints she would leave on the banister.

So crushing the letters is the best course of action. The only way. One by one she drops the pieces of paper and the wind sends them skirling across the winter beach.

She feels bad, of course she does. If the world were normal, she would never drop what in a normal world is litter. But the world is not normal, not now.

One page is caught in the dip before the rocks; others are held in the frothing shallow water. A single tear would be appropriate – the thought surprises her and she almost smiles. Then the smile fades from her eyes and she feels the chill on her neck.

She drops the last page and watches it skitter. The last one. Gone. She turns and walks away, into the wind.

Some years later, she returns with a dog and children. Of course there is no sign of his letters. No sign. Of course.

A sign of life

A sign

a sign

of life

of life

is all

is all

I need

[pause]

is all

is all

is all

I need

[pause]

is all

is all

is all I need

[pause]

A sign of life

of life

is all I need

is all

is all

is all I need

 

[pause]

[pause]

[pause]

 

A sign

a sign

of love

of love

is all

is all

I ask

[pause]

is all

is all

is all

I ask

[pause]

is all

is all

is all I ask

[pause]

A sign of love

of love

is all I ask

is all

is all

is all I ask

 

[pause]

[pause]

[pause]

 

A song

a song

of love

of love

is all

is all

I have

[pause]

is all

is all

is all

I have

[pause]

is all

is all

is all I have

[pause]

A song of love

of love

is all I have

is all

is all

is all I have

 

A song of love is all I have